Should I be happy
When all I want has a price?
The spark is fading from my eyes
And the scars from my heart I can't disguise.
I scratch your figure with my nails
And the wall is screeching wickedly
I tried to smile but it's so useless
When my life is everybody's mockery.
They told me I would never make it
And threatened me to better leave it
They have kicked me when I was down
My so-called friends never were around!
Sometimes I wonder if this is my end
If this day has come to wipe me away
I wonder if it will exist some day
When I won't fade in decay again.
I've tried so badly to change my luck
Life gave me dreams that won't come true
I guess I'm just a waste, a mess
I'll have to accept, I can't be the best.
Someday I'll have to leave this place
Dead memories are now revived
Sad past scenes are so well outlined
This vicious circle drives me insane!
I can hear the unfriendly silence
My mouth is opened, but they can't hear me
I fall in despair, no one can help me
Save me, please, don't turn off the light!